This is who I am

OK, so fair warning.  I'm not an atheist.  But I am in no way Christian.  (I like Jesus pretty ok.  Its the church I can't usually stand)

So, If you don't want to hear about my beef when one of my christian acquaintances sent me something I felt was offensive... then don't read any more.

But I need to get this off my chest, even if no one wants to read it.

Nothings happening.

I quit guitar class. Courtney didn't want to take it, and while it'd be really cool to learn guitar, i'm just not interested/confident enough to take the class alone.

Last session, I took art and dropped it after one week. This time, it's guitar. I'm kinda afraid of what I'm gonna drop next time.

I usually take on a little bit more than I really want, knowing that i'm gonna drop something. I just get concerned that I can't seem to take any classes that are artistic. I'm still in a final cut editing class, but editing is such a technical art. I love stuff like that, but it's really not very artistic.

I suppose, one day, I'll actually have to throw in the towel and admit that i'm just not a very creative person. But for now, I can't help still holding out hope that I AM artistic and just haven't found the right out let.

In any case, I'm excited about editing tonight. At the end of the class, we get to make our own presentation/silent film, and they show all of them up on the screen. It's not like a real movie theater, but it's still pretty cool. I just wish that I could shoot in a 16X9 format (widescreen) because I've only shot video on a full screen before, and I can't get over how much MORE you get to shoot when you're in widescreen.

My sister had my car fixed this week. It cost 1200 bucks, and that was on the cheap side!

I was worried that it was something I did, but supposedly, after a certain amoung of miles, it just happens. Something about a completely new set of water hoses, I think. My car has 80,000 miles on it, Half of that has been put on in the last year and a half... I'm not sure if that's really alot, but I feel like I put on alot of miles lately.

I think, next time I get a job, i'd like to have it a little closer to where i live. I mean, I like riverside alot better than menifee, but I hope that 1) I get to move out to north hollywood area and 2) I get to work in the NOho area, too. This commuting thing isn't terrible, but I don't really make enough money to afford driving an hour to work every morning, you know?

I can't believe how few communities there are here.

I couldn't even find one for SNL.. so I made one. Of course... I have no talent when it comes to doing any thing cool with it, so it may be a while before I pimp it out. And I don't even know if any one still likes SNL, since it was kinda on a low ratings period.

Oh well, at least I've got it up in case some one DOES want to join.

I wrote a big long complaint about the WGA "deal"  and filled out a survey. But it got lost, and I'm way too damn lazy to redo it right now.

And I have no idea what to say in it.

I guess I could start by explaining myself.

I'm currently 22... an office zombie who spends most of her days answering phones at a local university. Well, not that local. It takes me an hour an 10 minutes to get to work in the morning. But I live in california, so it's not that big of a deal to commute.

I used to go to school. The first thing I went for was Paralegal. That was right out of high school, and lasted about one semester. Then, I went for psychology. Again, that lasted about a semester.

I transferred to Cal State LA two years after high school. Please don't get CSULA confused with the beautiful beverly hills campus of UCLA. UCLA has thousands of students with top grades from all over the world competeing for spaces in some of the best programs around. Cal State LA takes the lowest of the low allowable, and puts them on a campus so ugly it makes ME look like Miss America.

First, I majored in Math. for a quarter. Then, I majored in Biology. Which was an awesome quarter, because I had a HOT biology lab teacher.. but I was no good at it... So I swtiched to Film. Well, unofficially. Because I never got my papers in to switch all together before I quit.

For a while, I did a lot of baby sitting. It wasn't fun. i'm absolutely no good with kids. The hardest 6 months of my life. Now, I'm an office zombie, and that's probably been the most boring time of my life.

I think I want to go back to school. And By think, I mean, I've found a school i like, and am now, just terrified because I have to actually apply, and pay for it, and move to Burbank.

The only thing that I enjoy, other than yarn, is writing. Everyone has told me to be a writer since I was... hmmm, I guess 5 or 6. I'm not exactly good at it, so I guess that's why I want to be a TV writer.

For a little under a year, I've lived with my parents. before that, I'd lived away from them for three years, so it's been kinda hard to be back with them. Even though I want out and I want my own privacy, freedom, ect... I'm a little scared to be out on my own (or with friends) because I tend to party/drink/fuck a little bit too much when I'm left on my own.

That's me in a nutshell. More to come, I guess.